In the second grade, my deskmate called JINGJING

At the time of the second year, my deskmate called quiet, people like its name, skin white beauty, I was still a log, until the second year began to muddled love this thing. She IS STUDY COMMITTEE MEMBER, I AM MATHEMATICS PHYSICS AND CHEMISTRY SPECIAL GOOD, THE THING OF LOGICAL SEX IS MORE EAGER TO LEARN, FEAR POLITICS MOST, English AND LANGUAGE, WANT ENDORSEMENT EVERYDAY. She goes home every week is her father's Santana, I am a bicycle, the car to my shoulder, set back to ride 20 miles of road, and then ride 10 miles of mountain road, once a week. She is the legend of big Miss, temper that hot, easy to beat me, pinch me, kick me. Once she kicked me in self-study class, I had been used to guard against it, suddenly grabbed her calf, lifted up and almost fell, she suddenly hugged my neck, surprised at me. At that time I said, you that leather shoes kick me can hurt, at this time to see her skirt under the white flower leg, white underwear. Her face instantly red, I also Meng in, after about 30 seconds said, you still don't put, I also solemnly said you don't kick me put. This day to see me will inexplicably blush. A recess time, I went to the playground to fish in the ditch, then the playground side has a large poplar forest, there is a clear bottom of the river, on both sides of the river is along the grass beach, with a variety of wildflowers. I caught a 5 catties cauliflower snake in the river, originally planned to sell after school, put in my monthly food stamps in the bag. Put it under her desk, she was in the corner, and then she found the class, a bag opened, a big snake on the spot scared dizzy, not even scream, I carried her all the way to the school near the health center. Note: I have seen snakes since I was a child. Later I wrote a check and posted it under the board. To apologize, she oppressed me for the past semester, like a slave. Fetch water for her, clean up my, dirty work to accompany me in the second year. There was a heavy snow in winter. In 1999, she caught a cold, and I didn't go to fish and rabbits for a long time. She set a trap in the reeds near the turnips and cabbages by the river, cast a net, collected a pheasant and some fish, and then took some medicine and lay on the table. I will generally give the game to the kitchen uncle, he that I can eat a, solve my four pounds of food stamps this week poor students to eat the problem, also mixed wind raw water. Give her a fish soup, fish slightly fried, and then put in the big urn stew, put some white radish and tofu, a little pickled cabbage and steamed bread, because poor generally eat are hiding in the corner, uncle will give me the rest of the soup, I half steamed bread, then a steamed bread is very large at least 6 liang. She never knew before, I saw she didn't eat, asked her if she wanted, later she finished my soup, said where to taxi, really delicious, the teacher's canteen never. I was then the teacher canteen is delicious, expensive, cash, I was in the student A B C canteen. I say ONESELF DO OF SMALL STOVE, SHE LENG, SHE DOES NOT BELIEVE, LATER SHE KNOW I EAT NOT FULL, every TIME LEAVE a STEAMED stuffed bun for me. Next March, Friday sleet, her father can't come to pick her up, I said I send you, anyway, passing your house, she in the back seat, I ride 28, waddle, to her home. She has down jacket and raincoat, I only do their own cotton-padded jacket, inside a patch of autumn clothes, outside is a school uniform. Her mother warmly received me, see my wet clothes, to give his father's down jacket to me, said to retire, do not wear, the first time to know that there is air conditioning this thing, good warm. Because of wearing single shoes, feet are full of chilblain, in her home carpet, full of patches of socks have been soaked, her father's shoes I can not wear, in fact, I can not wear down jacket, are big. Her mother stuffed me with a pile of wool socks. She looked at me with big, tearful eyes and was a little more gentle with me after that. After the 51 sports MEETING, IN the school playground a FEW SOCIETY SMALL RAScal, BULLY her, I and a GROUP OF small MIX played up, the head sew six needles, small MIX MIX ONE OF the arms was discounted by me, they also ADMIRE a pick three courage, also convinced, later all meet and smile. She accompanied me to the stitches, asked me if it hurt, I said no, she let me lean on her arms, the first time to feel her heart beating fast. Then a period of time to accompany me to change my dressing, care about me every day. Junior three special busy, next class. Often meet, we wish to enter the best high school. In high school, I was addicted to novels, and she often pulled my ears. My deskmate in senior two, I am taller than her, 170. She gave me sweaters and all that, and I did everything she asked. Eleven holidays, two people crazy, accidentally held together, only to find that she has been Tingting girl, beautiful and moving, and then electrocuted like separate. University, I went to Xi 'an, did not keep the appointment to the yearning people, mainly poor, can not pay tuition fees. In the first two years of sophomore year, the happiest thing is to receive letters, share each other's happiness, share each other's learning, more is to care about each other's good or bad. Junior received your letter less and less, suddenly received a call from your mother, said that hope to meet me, see your mother haggard a lot, just know that your first year was detected slow granular leukemia, suddenly deteriorated. When I saw you again, you forced a smile and told me about life. I wish you were alive, but I can't find a match for stem cells and bone marrow. Senior you leave, I have not said: I love you! But you and I know that you this life is not you do not marry, I do not marry you. Then lie in my arms, we kiss for the first time, hug, listen to each other's heartbeat. Take your hand and grow old together. I worked all four years of college, paid off student loans, and you sent me a bunch of food, groceries, and clothes every now and then. You look at me have an ignorant teenager to a high-minded youth, smaller than you I become 183 big man, you dried the blood, with ink mixed after the point into my arm, life don't want to leave you after crying in my arms after parting ways to go to college. You came to Xi 'an alone by train and gave me a surprise Spring Festival. I couldn't go home because of work. You and I spent the Spring Festival in a small room of 18 square meters in an urban village, eating simple vegetables and pork noodles. Come back to hug me to sleep, and we are in compliance with the agreement, has not been about the bottom line of morality. Whenever I am in trouble, you always tell me by my side or ear, don't be afraid, even if the end of the world you still have me. Let's watch the 2008 Olympic Games together, and then I will propose to you. The notes in your things, I sealed them in the safe with the letters, and at the end of the diary it said... The luckiest thing in this life to meet him, his good... The most regrettable thing is that I can't marry him and have children for him... Everything IS TOO LATE, did NOT HAVE TIME TO 08 YEARS to lose you forever, I want to scold ONESELF SILLY force, WHY NOT SAY, is also a lifetime commitment, I LOVE YOU, small JING! Then I went everywhere I could, traveling, taking the spot you gave me. My current wife, my daughter. I've been hiding it from everyone, and I haven't been back in a long time. After marriage, I understand that you have long been in love with me. Love, let me let go, let my life colorful, my good wife, beautiful daughter, kind parents. I am now a good husband, is a good father, in my heart you and she are my love, and I love some greedy, can only be a person when recall. . Love's greed, love's wound, taste alone, maybe one day I will talk to my wife about you, she is the love you sent from heaven to save me.