Not True Love

It all started in 10th grade, a new boy enrolled at our school. He was originally from Kentucky. I had to be with this country boy. As soon as we met, I just wanted to be his girlfriend. We found out we had one class together, weeks past and finally, he asked me out. I was ecstatic!

We were the perfect couple, and he was the perfect boyfriend. The perfect gentleman. I thought I found who I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. We went to the Christmas formal together and even prom.

Junior year was coming up and we were still going strong; nothing could separate us. If you saw me in the hall, he would be right beside me. We even had a vocational class together. Our sophomore year was over and summer had arrived. We went on dates, he came over to my house, it was like a fairytale.

School started and it was our junior year. We had about three classes together. I was so happy to see him all the time. My parents even accepted him. After junior year, he went to a summer camp. I got news that he was cheating. I couldn't believe what I heard.

We separated for a while. He went his way and I went mine. We were seeing other people. I never thought I could trust anyone or be happy again, but I did. I had to move past him! Senior year arrived, Finally! We had a lot of classes together. We ended up getting back together and getting married after he promised me not to cheat anymore. I thought this is it, I'm marrying the man of my dreams, but I was terribly wrong! After marriage things was still the same, in school that is. After graduation, things turned around for the worse.

I found out I was pregnant. We were going to be parents. I was so excited. I was being told he was cheating again. I thought, how could he cheat on me? I'm having his baby. I confronted him and he didn't take it to well. He held me down, biting me, holding my mouth shut so I wouldn't scream. I was terrified, not only for my life but for my babies life as well. After he calmed down, he promised never to do it again. I accepted his apology and believed his lies.

I had a friend to stay all night with me. He tried to get her to sleep with him. I confronted him again and he started to choke me. How can anyone hurt someone they love? I would go through his phone and I saw nothing but lies and cheating. He would constantly apologize and I always took him back.

He went out late one night to meet a girl and lied to me about it. I couldn't take the lies, the cheating, the abuse no more! I told him we needed a divorce. After filing it, he got worse. Telling me where I can go, where I can't go, what time to be home, you name it he did it.

No matter what I did, I couldn't get away from him. The fairytale I was thought couldn't be any more perfect turned into a total nightmare that I couldn't escape from. I finally said, "this needs to stop"! He hit me for the last time. I got help and finally, my life was at ease. I was finally happy. No more pain, no more crying myself to sleep. All this time I was blaming myself for his actions. Well, that came to a stop.

I stopped blaming myself for his actions and focused on me and my babies. I saw happiness in my children’s eyes. Their warm hugs felt my heart with Joy. I then realized I’m happy without him, as long as I have my babies. That’s all I would ever need.