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Fighting my Demons Freestyle

By Lightning Bolt โšกPublished about a year ago โ€ข Updated 9 months ago โ€ข 1 min read
shattered & shocked โšก

I get my feelings hurt

Because I need a hug and I feel disconnected

Then I get angry and act the fool

Making it far less likely I'll get the hugs I need

My behavior is crippling, ridiculous, unpredictable, self-defeating

I sit and I stew and I smolder for hours over little things

Then I blow up when everything boils over

I have no one to talk to about my problems (โšก>challenges<โšก๐Ÿ‘)

I'm told I need another friend

But where do I find a friend?

I'm far too old to meet one on a playground

And if I have another friend

___and they hurt my feelings

_______Will I act the fool with them?

And then it's POOF...๐Ÿ’จ๐Ÿ’จ

๐Ÿ’จ๐Ÿ’จ ๐Ÿ’จ๐Ÿ’จ >Gone<

โšก

The man I love wants to leave me

He's sane.

I'm not.

He's put up with too much of my shit {my mood swings}

How many times have I told him that I'm sorry?

Too many times for him to care anymore

I tell him I'm better off alone when I'm mad

Then...

When I'm over that mania, I know I'll never be better off without him!

Will he give me a dozenth 'second' chance?

๐Ÿคท

He was already doing that and then I fucked up again!!!

I'm my own worst enemy

๐Ÿ’™-๐Ÿ’š=๐Ÿ’”โšก

I love him.

(period/headline/ total emphasis)

4ever & always

__________________Bolt โšก

Original storyโ˜๏ธ by ยฉ๏ธWilliam Markly O'Neal II, 2024 - All rights reserved โšก

Free Verseheartbreaksad poetryStream of Consciousness

About the Creator

Lightning Bolt โšก

Bolt โšก aka Bill, a bizarre bisexual bipolar epilepticโšก๐Ÿง โšก Taco Bell Futurist ๐ŸŒฎ๐Ÿ””

Memes! Madness! LSD! Hell๐Ÿ”ฅ!๐Ÿ˜ˆ Creepy Crazy ghosts!

๐ŸฉธThrash!!๐Ÿฉธ SCREAM!!! ๐Ÿ˜ฑ Demons & Phobias & Prophets, oh my!

โšก Poetry ~ Challenge ~ Winners!

I am shock therapy. โšก๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ‘

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  • Kodahabout a year ago

    The cycle of hurt and regret, believe me, I understand. I hope your journey heals you every day, sending you lots of love your way!! ๐ŸŒŸ๐Ÿ’๐Ÿ’Œ

  • Sid Aaron Hirjiabout a year ago

    sounds like complex PTSD. It sucks when you feel so hopeless-hugs

  • Tiffany Gordonabout a year ago

    Praying! ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿพ Hugs 2 u Brilliant Bill!

  • Shirley Belkabout a year ago

    Just ask for a hug....sending you one now!!!

  • My heart goes out to you ๐Ÿฅบ Sending you lots of love and hugs โค๏ธ

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