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Fighting my Demons Freestyle

I get my feelings hurt
Because I need a hug and I feel disconnected
Then I get angry and act the fool
Making it far less likely I'll get the hugs I need
My behavior is crippling, ridiculous, unpredictable, self-defeating
I sit and I stew and I smolder for hours over little things
Then I blow up when everything boils over
I have no one to talk to about my problems (โก>challenges<โก๐)
I'm told I need another friend
But where do I find a friend?
I'm far too old to meet one on a playground
And if I have another friend
___and they hurt my feelings
_______Will I act the fool with them?
And then it's POOF...๐จ๐จ
๐จ๐จ ๐จ๐จ >Gone<
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The man I love wants to leave me
He's sane.
I'm not.
He's put up with too much of my shit {my mood swings}
How many times have I told him that I'm sorry?
Too many times for him to care anymore
I tell him I'm better off alone when I'm mad
Then...
When I'm over that mania, I know I'll never be better off without him!
Will he give me a dozenth 'second' chance?
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He was already doing that and then I fucked up again!!!
I'm my own worst enemy
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I love him.
(period/headline/ total emphasis)
4ever & always
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Comments (5)
The cycle of hurt and regret, believe me, I understand. I hope your journey heals you every day, sending you lots of love your way!! ๐๐๐
sounds like complex PTSD. It sucks when you feel so hopeless-hugs
Praying! ๐๐พ Hugs 2 u Brilliant Bill!
Just ask for a hug....sending you one now!!!
My heart goes out to you ๐ฅบ Sending you lots of love and hugs โค๏ธ