Grow so Green

Tears I cry from my sorrowed heart

Poured to me from the heavens of human earth.

A sour water filled of greed

I only wish to be me.

So free as my feet are grounded,

And my being that dances behind my bones may be able to see

Without feeling so trapped behind my own eyes.

I am so lost within myself,

And I cannot see myself truly

For I know I am more than what I see when I gaze into the mirror

Like some portal to another life

Where maybe things could be clearer.

I stare through you.

This suit of body.

This face of mask.

Where I am not aimlessly searching for answers out of fear,

Where I am not searching for myself every day of every year.

For the days twist and pull me in

And I become dizzy and I let myself in.

Into the dark where I see a light of green.

Green the color that I seek

The color of connection and comfort to me.

I remind myself to pause and admire the present

And to pay care to myself and to simply breathe.

There is no point in worry or fear

In seeking so much understanding

I remind myself to simply accept.

Accept all there is

And all there is to be.

Because with this acceptance of all there is outside of myself

What I have is control over my own being.

And only I can choose how I am to be,

And as many shades there are green

There are shades of me.

Change is good when you accept it,

It is growth when you care for it.

Maybe today when I see the shades of green

I will remember to pause and simply be.

As I am,

As I grow

Like a garden to each our own.

I grow so green.