I’m Not Okay
So stop asking
I am not okay. Can’t you see I’m in agony. Don’t you see the sad in me?
I keep enduring tragedy. I’ve gone from sad to mad and now it breeds bad in me.
I act like I’m not in pain. Really tryna be tough.
I try my best to do better. Yet it’s never enough.
I’m coming up on 32 years of age and still I’m carrying rage.
From being unable to turn the page from trauma that keeps me in a cage.
Every time I choose a better path I lose a better half.
The spirit beyond the eyes laces me with its wrath.
I’m tired of holding it together as if nothing can phase me.
Too much loss and death. I feel like I’m going crazy.
I keep looking for something I should believe in.
Only thing I see is repetition from my demons.
My heart knows not content. Only greed inside.
On the out you see no wounds, but I bleed inside.
No matter how many test I pass the devil keeps trying me.
I can’t get a decent night of rest without anxiety.
I never asked for the heat, but still I keep frying.
My family is not all dead but still keeps dying.
I don’t want this pain of life to deepen and worsen.
I feel like one day it’s gonna make me a terrible person.
Listen loud and clear to the words I’m about to say.
I’m not okay. I’m not okay. Stop asking…I’m not okay.
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Joe Patterson
Hi I'm Joe Patterson. I am a writer at heart who is a big geek for film, music, and literature, which have all inspired me to be a writer. I rap, write stories both short and long, and I'm also aspiring to be an author and a filmmaker.
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Praying for you. I am not okay either. :-)
Praying that ministering angels wrap their wings of comfort and protection around you! Sending you a big bear hug of comfort my friend!
Joe, the words jump out of the page into my heart. I can relate to your feelings. Society pressures us to be okay 24 hours 7 days a week, but that's impossible. It's okay to say you are not okay. You need a gummy bear meds for anxiety. 🌹🌹
This is intense, strong, and powerful. It is OK to say you’re not OK. We don’t always have to be optimistic and seeing life through a rose colored glasses. Sometimes we can see the hurt and the pain and the agony. That help helps us to come back around to the beauty of life.
Ooh, The repetition of "I'm not okay" is both haunting and powerful, underscoring the plea to be truly seen and understood. Writing like this holds space for healing, even in the darkest moments. Stay strong—you've captured something profoundly human.
Really shows on the out side we look ok inside it hell ✍️♦️♦️♦️♦️