Okay, is a dirty word

Okay is a dirty word

That hangs in the air

With the threat of another

Well meaning voice,

Don't they know

Every time I hear those four letters

All I want to do is fall to my knees

And scream for the unfairness

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The pages in my mind that tell

The story of us make one tear

After another

As they rip my already

Shredded soul apart

~

How do I move on

When grief and guilt

Make me question every moment

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Every new day is a cruel reminder

Of the time that's passed

Since my heart became

An empty vessel floating on an ocean

Colored red from the wounds

That were

Cut deep by the ghosts of you

~

How do I keep going, knowing

I have to live in this world without you

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Words...words can be enemies with swords

Striking with promises of better places

And better tomorrows, but

I don't want better days

I don't want to forget this pain

Because when I stop feeling this hurt

Another part of you will be gone

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Time doesn't always heal, and I'm never

Getting over losing you, not when

I see a cup of coffee

And it breaks me a little more

Inside

Because I know

You won't ever have another

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I can smile, I can be happy

I can look like this isn't who I am

But behind my pretending eyes

Is a dam holding back a river of tears

Waiting to join the ones I've already

Cried

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I keep looking up, asking the sky

To pass messages from me to you

Hoping they will find their way

Through the clouds

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I keep standing alone, begging the wind

To blow strong enough to turn back time

Because I didn't know the last time

I saw you would be the last, and

Now, I can't get over the regret

I didn't wrap my arms around you

I didn't say I love you

I didn't say goodbye