You entered loud with holy light
a savior in disguise
but every blessing that you gave
hid thorns behind the prize
π΅βπ«
You study me like prey to stalk
you mirror, you twist, repeat
Build an inventory of my wounds
then worship at my feet
π΅βπ«
Your love arrives in fireworks
then leaves in quiet dread
I learned to walk on splintered eggs
and hush the things I've said
π΅βπ«
Your hate arrives in quiet jabs
in smirks that split me thin
you watch me doubt my very breath
and count that as a win
π΅βπ«
Your voice, a heavy sharpened blade
slicing me with every word
you say the storms are in my head
and to dismiss everything I heard
π΅βπ«
You spin the truth until it bends
until I can't recall
what's real, what's mine, what's memory...
you rearrange it all
π΅βπ«
You call me crazy, unstable, wrong
and push until I break
then I'm the one who's crazy
and should learn from my mistakes
π΅βπ«
You slam the doors like loaded guns
then leave without a trace
you crawl back in with empty vows
and hands that cup my face
π΅βπ«
Your apologies are empty shells
a script you never feel
you toss around those empty words
and swear your tears are real
π΅βπ«
You punish me for speaking up
and smile while I plead
You fill me with your poison love
you swear it's all I need
π΅βπ«
Cuz I'm the one who started it
I'm the one untrue
but madness wasn't born in me
it's what I breathe from you
About the Creator
Sara Wilson
I love Ugly Things.
I try and be active AND interactive.
I write... whatever I feel.
Sometimes it's happy.. sometimes it isn't. But it's real. And it's me.



Comments (6)
Those last two lines are my favourite! Sending you lots of love and hugs β€οΈ
Reactive Emotional Abuse - push push push until you break. I've known this all too well. I am so sorry Sara and also who ever inspired this poem can go to hell. Your words are beautiful, however. Be proud of who you are xx
I felt like I was reading my own memories. I'm so sorry for everyone who knows what all this feels like. But you did a gorgeous job with this poem! Love it, Sara! π§‘
Wonderfully written.
this is spot on...wonderfully written and powerfully delivered
Damn π. You expressed the feeling of being in a narcissistic abuse relationship perfectly and poetically. Well written!