Humanity
Things I regret now that I'm 29
This week I turn 29 years old. Typically, celebrating my birthday has always been a positive experience for me. I would make a countdown starting at the beginning of the month and announce to my family everyday how many days were left until my special day. This year however my birthday is joined with a bitter sadness as we held a funeral for my step dad who attempted suicide this year after a hard and tragic struggle with alcoholism and prescription meds. On Father’s Day weekend, we held a tree planting ceremony for my step dad in 115ºF weather in the Las Vegas desert, coming together for the first time in over a decade. Seeing all of my extended family again had all the opportunities to catch people up on my life. The last they saw me I was a young teen, graduating high school, fresh eyed and ready for anything. Now I am 29, two kids, married, and burying the ashes of my step father under a tree at a park he was responsible for landscaping. The conversations that insued about myself and my step dad led me to thinking about where I was now that I am 29 and where I want to go next.
By Rhea Sunshine5 years ago in Confessions
Odd One out
In my world, I have always had trouble fitting in. Whether it’s because I’m vastly different from the person I’m surrounded with or unwilling to conform to their version of normal, I’ve just never fit. This has been never more clear than the first initial months of my former job.
By InkGalaxies~5 years ago in Confessions
A Woman and Her Fears
Here fear doesn’t define only the fear of being tortured physically. It is about violating the liberties of a woman, Restriction to openly speak. If this fear of the women of the country is not eradicated, then the dream of women empowerment will remain dreams.
By Unbounded Soul5 years ago in Confessions
Bless your heart.
I'll never forget meeting my ex boyfriend's family in Cington Georgia. It was 1978 and I was twenty three years old. I had never been to Georgia and my only association was peaches. I was excited to taste one fresh from a farm. The land was rolling hills, often thick with kudsu. It felt wet and dense. We were deep in the country and the history and energy of it was quite old. Very Southern Baptist.
By Susan Kulkowitz5 years ago in Confessions
"SHANITA" MEANS A BEAUTIFUL GIFT FROM GOD
When I awake in the morning, I make sure to start my day off with gratitude and prayer. It is what sustains my day and provides mental preparation for how I handle my external environment. Meditation proceeds, but I’m still working on how to clear my mind longer than ten seconds. I stay dedicated. I drink a glass of water before I exercise, and complete my other recreational tasks, so that around 11 am my day begins.
By Beautiful Intelligence5 years ago in Confessions
Curved Bowls and Medicine for Melancholy
A few years ago, the city council of Monza, Italy, barred pet owners from keeping goldfish in curved bowls... saying that it is cruel to keep a fish in a bowl with curved sides because, gazing out, the fish would have a distorted view of reality. But how do we know we have the true, undistorted picture of reality? Stephen Hawking
By Tom Brad5 years ago in Confessions
Reverse Immigration
My first day at the job I was lectured by another teacher for wearing shoes inside the school. He scolded me in a language familiar, yet completely foreign to my ears. I was late getting on the bus, so it didn't phase me in the slightest. I remember hearing him laugh later on with the other teachers thinking that I was another student. I laughed too. I was fresh out of college and everything about my face and features looked the same as them. It was reassuring knowing that for once in my life everyone else around me looked like me.
By Dan Lee5 years ago in Confessions
WEIRDOS
The story of my life is “I don’t fit in.” I can remember listening to Mariah Carey’s Album, “Butterfly,” singing the words to the song, “Outside, around the age of ten.” It went something like this… “You’ll always be, somewhere on the outside.” What’s even more affirming is that I’m an Aquarius and Aquarians don’t fit in. Uranus is our ruling planet which simply means rebellion. Although I never thought of myself as such, I see why I am. I do not have the same beliefs as my family. I am an “out of the box” thinker. I love to debate and challenge other’s perspectives, and most of all I can’t be controlled or conform unless I agree with the situation at hand. Other rebellious qualities are that we are known to stand up passionately for the things we believe in, and usually becomes activists through music or our artistic gifts.
By Beautiful Intelligence5 years ago in Confessions
