How to live in alignment

For weeks i had no idea why I had this lingering ache, lump, dryness in my throat. Anytime i tried to talk it literally felt like I was being strangled, even when I was writing I caught myself holding my throat. It became to noticeable to the point I thought i needed to go to the doctors. I took medication, kept my throat warm and really took care of myself, but this uncomfortable feeling was still there.

I did a deep dive and I came across something I knew about but never really took the time to learn. Chakras. So much started to make sense. Actually the whole year and everything that has happened to me. Going back to my throat though, from my research the throat chakra, is the colour blue, is your voice and the wave you create in the world. The throat chakra allows you to exist out loud. To be heard, to change the vibrations around you. To speak in a way your higher-self would.

Its honestly pretty magical when you think about it. However, as I thought about it, it was clear that mine was blocked. For the past week to stop arguments and just "keep the peace" with my family, I silenced myself. I have been stopping myself from giving my opinion, telling my truth. When i did speak it was in a way to please them. I can also say the way I have been talking is a way that I dont see my higher self talking. I have been talking doubt, worry, pain, misery, guilt.

My throat quite literally closed.

It was almost impossible to talk. Anytime a subject came up that my truth did not align with, I got that tight feeling almost as if a lump was forming. My words slurred, literally didnt come out. To add it was also pretty painful.

I asked myself the hard question, what am i not saying? and oh boy, did this open up a can of worms I was not ready for. I got writing and it just flowed, flowed until the point I arrived. I was lying. Lying to myself. Lying to everyone. I was completely living a lie. Doing a job I didnt want, living in a place I didnt feel home, speaking in a way that wasn't who I was.

That moment everything changed. I changed. I decided this is not what I want. I started speaking my truth, exactly what I believed, what I felt. Im not going to agree just ebcause its the right thing to do or to let myself speak on a low vibrational level that does not align with me.

Alignment. As a pilot before getting ready to land, we align the plane with the runway. In order to land safely. If not, you have to go around, do a missed approach and try again. It has to be perfectly aligned. Why should it be any different for us? To be able to ground ourselves we need to create a safe and secure landing. The moment that misalignment happens, you have to get back on track, the more you deviate the harder it is. Stay on your path, your truth. You are landing in yourself.