A New Year, For a Better Me

Kicking off the new year with a lot more responsibilities for others needs than my own, as well with many more health resolutions. Kicking bad habits, the I can'ts, the I want out. Replacing them with more positive thinking, self discipline, healthier regimes, I cans, and I will have in. Though the days are long and I wish I had at least one day of the week I could sleep in consideration I do not make a salary as one would doing what I do, always being grateful and reminding myself of everything there is to be grateful for. Even though I need my beauty sleep so I can feel like myself.

Life is too short not to do something that we love with our precious time, and taking care of our precious health. Some of my new years resolutions include trying to make a way so I can help someone in need, and still make a way and continue trying to pave a path for myself so I can accomplish my own needs dreams and goals and put myself in a healthier position and better health physically and mentally. Because I am destined to live a healthy life I love enthusiastically! One of my many resolutions that I have had ever since 2019 is getting a vehicle, getting as healthy as I can, and reminding myself that working hard on my writing has not all been for little to nothing even when it seems that way. Telling myself even though I can see the time it has took away from me without giving anything back so I would have anything I need to show for it that someday soon I will.

Telling myself I will keep trying in my free time so that I can focus on going to the doctor when I can and find out how I can best treat my epilepsy that I have only myself I can count on for figuring out how I will find a treatment plan so I can get better and heal from within. Resolving my immobility as someone that loves driving, and fixing the issue of not easily getting back and forth with a bus phobia that is untreatable as a germaphobic and the need for complete mobility independence being one of them. Living in a different state still halfway in limbo telling myself not to feel like I'm stuck somewhere between a rock and a hard place trying to do the right thing for others outta empathy, understanding and compassion while working on myself, my health, and other resolutions.

Physically over exerting myself with my condition having a very negative impact on me from my mouth to my brain I have a lot more than my bed ridden priority in the other room to worry about that I do not have the time or money for. With many set backs, stressers, and time that I have not been compensated for or gotten justice from in 2020 including covid-19, as many can say, I haven't been able of coming to a conclusion so I can better myself and my life, but it is a resolution of many. Telling myself every day that every effort and every step I have took to improve my life, will pay off. Because I am destined for success, for my good and the good of others. Staying determined, having a more positive mind frame, remembering and following the cycles by heart, and reading more. Everything happens for a reason and always trying my best and never giving up especially when it comes to my health is important.

Staying away from cigarettes, drinking more water, having a healthier more food pyramid balanced pescatarian diet, cutting out stress eating, and staying away from things that do not influence my physical or mental betterment positively. Keeping healthy friendships and relationships with my friends and family is also always a goal every new year. Getting two crowns, my wisdom teeth pulled, the money to do so, and many other things I enumerate on. Getting my stuff from storage and moving it in somewhere, working towards my big goals and my dream lifestyle because mental health and physical health are equally as important. Work on my attitude, clearing up my skin completely, turning back the aging clock, growing out my hair healthily and naturally, and focusing on my bucket, to do, to go, and to get lists. Finding the best balance I can in life, and working on my meditation and getting back into yoga so I can live my healthiest and most enlightened stress free life possible.

2021 is a good year for pursuing and reaching the dreams and ambitions that I have had ever since I can remember. 2020 was a boost for some people, and for a lot off us it set us back. Pushing through with a positive mindset and never giving up. Becoming a part in something greater than so I can line myself up to be beyond successful while I am still chasing success in my finances, personal life, professional life, and in my physical, spiritual, and mental health. Those movie like dreams from television scenes are what I will, like every year, still be chasing and not giving up on the beauty of them. While focusing in on the little things and appreciating every single day for what it is.

Helping others and helping myself is a goal like every year that is very important. When 2022 comes around, I need to say that I did as much good not only for myself and my health, but for others and their health as well. As well as ever since it began, seeing the stopping of Covid and the way it has negatively impacted many peoples lives is essential for me because I think we have all had enough of the surge, the spread, and the way it has changed many aspects in life, and are tired of the masks. I can say this for myself, and for almost everyone else confidently, that long before 2022 it'll be a thing of the past. I can only cross my fingers on that one.