And Then I Wrote It Down...

Not Tapping Out

Life's a wonderous thing sometimes filled with pain

We all have those moments that make us feel insane

Locked in a closet with nowhere to scream

I wish I could have helped you but what would that mean

Such a beautiful life and a loving heart

But in one rash decision it all fell apart

How did it all happen

I'll never know

But I keep asking what made you go

The rush of all the events until it's a blur

And then it all slows down when the news starts to stir

Nobody knew what you were going through or really how to help

But no one wanted to see you end it by yourself

Such a beautiful life and a loving heart

But in one rash decision it all fell apart

How did it all happen

I'll never know

But I keep asking what made you go

What was the point when you just had enough

Was it just a nightmare or were you just playing tough

How could no one see it when you looked into their eyes

It's hard to deal with defeat

I wish you saw the light

Such a beautiful life and a loving heart

But in one rash decision it all fell apart

How did it all happen

I'll never know

But I keep asking what made you go

Moving Forward

Aimlessly wondering how to pick up the pieces

When the pieces have been broken so many times

And I'm thankful I have a shoulder to lean on

But we are both pulling it in overtime

No one wrote about what happens next

It's a lot a bit frightening and a little intense

But we keep carving out our dream

Working together to figure out what it means

We never imagined this adventurous twist

And it's all gone by so fast that it's easy to miss

The moments were many the changes were too

We're living an entirely different life than we pictured it's true

No one wrote about what happens next

It's a lot a bit frightening and a little intense

But we keep carving out our dream

Working together to figure out what it means

Thankful for all our blessings unexpected and new

We had painted a picture once but at that time we never knew

You can't create a masterpiece without spilling a little paint

A story can't be planned it's the decisions that you make

No one wrote about what happens next

It's a lot a bit frightening and a little intense

But we keep carving out our dream

Working together to figure out what it means

Crack in the Smile

Delving into a situational gravity

Pulled me to the floor so confusing it was hard to see

What was up, what was down, who is wrong, do you got that right

All the words that I'm hearing have a hard relentless bite

And I know there's a red flag but it is always hidden by a smile

A puppeteer on the edge working my strings

I'm so senile

If I could cut lose I might be set free but the tragedy to this is I'm just a worked up pawn

In a game I had no intention of playing and the results are so wrong

Sometimes good intentions are taken for granted with no appreciation for sweat or tears

And the biggest apprehension is having to conquer all your fears

Do I confine myself to this tantrum already knowing how it ends

Or do I back off all together and give myself some time to mend

And I know there's a red flag but it is always hidden by a smile

A puppeteer on the edge working my strings

I'm so senile

If I could cut lose I might be set free but the tragedy to this is I'm just a worked up pawn

In a game I had no intention of playing and the results are so wrong

The damage is done and now I have armor all around

I was sad and disappointed by your fake cherished invisible crown

But now I know how transparent things are when the spotlight is on your actions

I don't need a made up ending

Now I see your infractions

And I know there's a red flag but it is always hidden by a smile

A puppeteer on the edge working my strings

I'm so senile

If I could cut lose I might be set free but the tragedy to this is I'm just a worked up pawn

In a game I had no intention of playing and the results are so wrong