Dear Apathy

Dear Apathy

I see you're back

Won't say I wasn't expecting this, with the

cold winter days encroaching and all

But I was fairly surprised to feel

your weight so early in the morning

First my right shoulder while I went to work

Then you dug into my left while I had

That annoying caller

And that was it, you had me

before I knew it.

Your weight digging in

Pressing me down

All my determination and

progress

gone

Just the weight of

not caring if

I do the list I made

Or meet my goals

Or even go to work

No, no care at all.

Just sit there,

with the monkey on my back

Oh, there's plenty of tv to watch.

Youtube never runs out of videos

Just sit there

sit

sit

sit

don't look outside

there's nothing there

anyway

Except

There is

The sun is out

and the air is cool

crispy even

If I could just get up

I will get up

I WILL

You'll see

I'll take you with me

Into the sun.

I know you don't like that.

And I think there must be a point to you

You're here to try and protect me

To try and make sure I don't let my big feelings get out of control

That the hurt is less when things go wrong.

I promise I understand why you do this

But you need to leave now

You had your time

but I get it

I won't let you steal me

away

and tie me

to that chair

and that laptop

again.

So thank you for your lesson

now get out.