depression
It is not just a matter of feeling sad; discover an honest view of the mental, emotional and physical toll of clinical depression.
The Darkness Guardian
On a cold, Northern Canadian night, a young couple sit gathered on a comfy, grey couch, cuddled under a white cotton blanket. Each reading a book as the internet is down; listening to the wind snarl, like a wolf blowing snow with every deep howl. The crackling fire with a gaze so sharp, so bright, it is as if there is an owl staring at them with their piercing yellow eyes. Creaks and faint scratches as a village of little grey mice attempt to make a home in the basement for the winter. "Stay warm, don't let your feet touch the ground. Keep your toes wrapped under his legs. Protection." The woman's heart whimpers to herself. Scratchy legs resembling a cat's whiskers, it is worth the tingling sensation in her little piggy’s.
By Kayla Smith5 years ago in Psyche
Gideon.
Twenty Seventeen. I had always felt not quite right… When I was eleven I was diagnosed with Anxiety. That's something I had learnt to live but 2017 felt different. The anxiety began to suffocate me and I was feeling more sad then stressed. The world around me started to feel different, I didn’t feel apart of it anymore. I felt like I was watching my body from afar and had little to no control of it. I was sixteen and in my tenth year of schooling, I had started to slowly disappear from my friends. Instead of going five days a week like I was supposed to, I was only going three or four. I couldn’t get out of bed some mornings but I was still keeping up with work, so no one really noticed how bad I was getting. It wasn’t until the end of 2017 when I had little to no friends left and was only attending one to two days a week… I was no longer keeping up with my work and was at risk of failing the entire year. My friends and I never had a falling out or anything, I just wasn’t present enough in our friendship and they eventually gave up on me. My mother took me to a doctor early December of that year, three days before my seventeen birthday… that's when I was diagnosed with depression. They started me on a low dose of antidepressants but they weren’t really helping, I was told to give it three months before they looked at different options.
By Gemma Walsh 5 years ago in Psyche
Optimistically Depressed
I can't remember a time I wasn't depressed. I remember a time before I knew what that meant and just knowing I was different from other people, but this feeling of isolation has never gone away. This doesn't mean that I've never been happy or that I don't have moments that make me forget my depression, but it's always there.
By Jordan Tinsley5 years ago in Psyche
Pregnant & Battling Depression
Firstly, it’s more than likely that I’ve carried depression and mood disorders my entire life. Surpressed for certain occasions, certain emotions. However, pregnancy, although has been a completely miracle and joyous time, has heightened my depression and anxiety immensely. I find myself playing out scary and fearful situations through my head on a daily basis, casually. It’s terrifying! Usually it’s myself in a car accident or worrying about my S/O on his way back home. Practically anytime he holds me and showers me with love I begin to sob in tears and worry relentlessly about him. After all, he’s my soulmate and my bestfriend. I couldn’t make it through everyday life without him. Whatever it may be it’s never easy for me, it’s paralyzing. When riding in the car with loved ones it’s become common for me to panic and “make a scene” practically anytime any other cars are nearby or if at a busy intersection. It’s become pretty embarrassing I have to admit! Grabbing the door handle, pushing myself back, and preparing for the hyperventilating scene. But keep in mind though if you will, I was in a car accident just last year and although nobody was hurt I often believe that it did cause PTSD to a degree. I do believe becoming a mom has hightened those fears and anxieties though. On top of being pregnant, you’re basically not only responsible for yourself but for another person who is completely dependent upon you. No pressure!
By TotalMomBlog5 years ago in Psyche
How to Manage During a Depressive Episode
Depression has a way of taking over your daily life without you noticing it until it has managed to consume everything. Figuring out how to take control of your depression so you can still focus on the day to day mundane tasks without wanting to crawl back into bed and never return is a real skill.
By Shiloh Madison5 years ago in Psyche
Nothing
I've been having these strange thoughts lately. I wonder what is real, if any of it is, and what is not. When I sleep, I find myself in a long dusty hallway. The wooden floor can be seen through the threadbare carpet. I carefully step forward, as if afraid. Inside, I wonder what I should fear and the answer is nothing. The further I wander down this unending hall, the more afraid I feel.
By Nathalia Shaffer5 years ago in Psyche
See Me As I Am
Chapter One——— 11:04:20 What is this? I've been writing since I was in fourth grade. It's the only thing I've really been able to impress myself with throughout my life despite my many passions. Writing when you live your life depressed and feeling lost...it's so hard for me. Every time I think my work speaks of originality and success something drives me to hit the backspace.
By Kaila Keane5 years ago in Psyche
