depression
It is not just a matter of feeling sad; discover an honest view of the mental, emotional and physical toll of clinical depression.
Why Is Depression So Depressing?
I just had a conversation with a guy I met in my neighborhood recently. You know, just a small conversation as he passed by my place as I was bringing my dog back from taking a major shit. He asks me how I'm doing. I say, "umm ok" and kind of wiggle my head back and forth in a figure 8 as I rack my brain trying to figure out how I'm really doing. I like to be honest you know? But I couldn't find anything to complain about. Things have finally become on the quiet side for me after years worth of what some might call "Depression." Have I been depressed? I guess so. I know I've been sad. There was a lot of crying going on, on the daily. I mean I just found out that my entire family and every friend I have ever had spent the last 40 years thinking something about me that wasn't true. And there was no way possible for me to be able to go back in time and change that. So yea, I have spent the last few years being "depressed." Again I say, "I guess," because when I think about depression I kind of feel like I don't really know the definition to the word. What is depression? Is it a bad thing? Sure I'll tell you I was depressed, but do I have to also agree with others' immediate thoughts saying that it is a bad thing? The stigma that goes along with admitting you're depressed? That something went wrong in your life and now things are bad and that's all a bad thing and now we shall treat you bad and you will be bad and so on? And did I have a good enough reason to be depressed?
By MCBerthaG Divinity6 years ago in Psyche
Mentally Ill? Or Perhaps...
I’m on a mission... This mission started about 17 years ago when I first got diagnosed with depression. And now at 25 years old, I’m just recently recognizing that I’m on this mission. And with a clearer sight of it, I realize it has only just begun.
By Brendan Styles6 years ago in Psyche
The Correlation Between Hearing Loss and Depression
Did you know that over five percent of the entire global population—approximately 360 million people—is struggling with depression? Did you also know that more than seven percent of the 500 million people with hearing problems across the world also suffer depression? There clearly must be a correlation between these two problems. It is, however, very sad that most people don’t acknowledge depression as a serious medical issue, neither do they really care to find its cure, despite the disease ranking among the leading causes of death in the world today. Research shows that some depression cases only require a patient to wear hearing devices and their problem is solved.
By Flora Mayer6 years ago in Psyche
Someone Saved My Life Tonight
I just completed a 12 hour shift. I'm tired. I'm aggravated... It's cold outside... I'm exhausted, and now the key to the back door of my apartment is stuck, and the door won't un-lock. What do I do? Out of frustration, I started kicking the shit out of the bottom of the door, cursing at the same time, while still wiggling the only key I own out of the key-hole. I don't have a spare, because I lost it at work, and was too lazy to go to a locksmith to have a duplicate made. Once the lock unjammed, and the door opened, I entered my apartment even more aggravated than ever. I removed my department-issued gun, and placed it on the end table inside the living room like I always do. I went inside the bathroom to towel myself off from standing in the rain, when briefly, looked in the mirror and saw that my eyes were blood shot.
By Michael Ashton7 years ago in Psyche
The Steep Price of Depression (Pt. 2)
The Oscar-Worthy Performance One of the most frustrating misconceptions of depression is that depressed people should be visually sad or emotional, or even worse, depressed people are just attention seekers. I think every time I would hear one of these statements during my “dark days,” a piece of my heart died from the sheer ignorance to the issue. Nothing could be found further from the truth. People suffering from depression often make it their life’s mission to hide what’s going on inside by almost creating a separate identity of themselves. They do this almost like an actor who embraces becoming a different person for a role. In all honesty, I learned to perfect this “alternative character” of myself in almost Oscar-Worthy proportions.
By Nathan Scot Wells7 years ago in Psyche
One Peppermint Starlight
In January of 2000 I became unemployed. My anxiety and depression had taken its toll and the inevitable happened; I lost my job. I just couldn't function anymore. It was a burnout type job anyway, and I think a lot of people would have struggled under the pressure of taking 525 calls a day. Some are built for that, but in retrospect there is no way I could have handled that. Me, a person with Asperger's syndrome, a social disorder characterized in part as being socially impaired, and for some having a sensitivity to noise, having to interact with over 525 people a day, and in an environment that is very noisy, trying to deal with this situation it was safe to say it was too tall of a task for me to handle. And yet I tried. It is what I do. I take an aspect of my personality and challenge it. My first job had been as a vendor at the Oakland Coliseum. I was out there amongst 25,000 people a night in my brown uniform sticking out like a sore thumb yelling, "ice cream malts here," or soda, or hot dogs, it varied from day to day. And although this went against my nature, and it went against my strengths, there was always a part of me that could not handle being different or having a chink in the armor so to speak, so I would challenge it when I could. Some challenges I would brave and take, and some I would shrink from. But as much I shrank and ran from challenges, I have to give myself credit and admit that I often took them on as well. This time I failed miserably and was out of a job.
By Marc Sander7 years ago in Psyche
The Steep Price of Depression
Running Helped Save My Life Running to me is like water to a fish. It’s like a sixth sense that overshadows the other five senses. It’s the way I’ve learned to connect to my inner self: You know, that passion for life that comes from the soul. It’s my way of connecting with Earth, and escaping a world dominated by drama, judgment, and negativity.
By Nathan Scot Wells7 years ago in Psyche
These Past Few Months
These past few months have been very draining. Emotionally and physically. Every single day I'm faced with new challenges that sometimes take a lot out of me. I have had my walls broken down and built back up. I have lost people and gained some as well. This is just a glimpse into my life.
By Miranda Hagins7 years ago in Psyche
Friends Without Faces
It was now June of 1999 and the anxiety that was taking over my life was beginning to have more of a profound effect on me. As I have said before, routines are very important to people with Asperger's syndrome. We thrive on routine. It helps us navigate through what can be a very confusing world that we live in. I had a daily routine when it came to doing house chores. I came up with 7 different chores that needed to be done at my little studio apartment and did one a day. Monday was take out the trash, Tuesday was wipe down the tops and so on. When I was doing well, I kept up with the routine. Going to work is the same way. You have a routine. You work the same 5 days a week and get up at the same time and catch the bus at the same time. When I was doing well, I was rarely sick and never missed the bus. If I am distracted or not doing well ,this routine gets affected as well.
By Marc Sander7 years ago in Psyche
