personality disorder
Personality disorders are as complex as they are misunderstood; delve into this diagnosis and learn the typical cognitions, behaviors, and inner experience of those inflicted.
How It Feels to Be Feared
How it feels to be told your parents and others are afraid of you: not good. I’ve never even raised a hand to either of my mother’s nurses, but they’re scared of me. I’ve pushed my mother to the floor, but that was after she pushed me and I hadn’t anticipated she’d fall. I’ve raised an envelope opener to my father, but he’d pissed me off enough to do so. I’m not proud of any of this. I’d love to always be in control rather than in the throes of anger.
By Alexandra F8 years ago in Psyche
Plans Changing With Borderline Personality Disorder
Those with BPD can be impulsive. We may go out and spend all our money on new clothes. We may gamble it all away. We might suddenly decide to drive down a motorway at 3 o clock in the morning without a seatbelt.
By Shaye Goodenough8 years ago in Psyche
Life with BPD
Everything ends. You either do it until you die or it leaves. The choice you make it how you cope with the end, and how long you prolong the inevitable. It isn’t about denying the end; it’s about avoiding it. You run from commitments knowing you’ll ruin them prematurely. Only you last until death. Everything else leaves.
By Kat Kaplan8 years ago in Psyche
I Hate You. Don't Leave Me
Relationships with BPD are anything but simple, both the person with BPD and the one without it can feel as if they are always treading on eggshells in a constant war zone. People with Borderline Personality Disorder have extreme difficulty maintaining a healthy relationship with anyone. From intimate relationships to relations with family members due to the dreadful symptoms that the disorder causes, which are mood swings, risky and impulsive behavior, and what I believe is the most severe, the cognitive-perceptual symptoms which involve suspicion, paranoia, and illusions. All of these symptoms make the person with BPD feel as if they are ticking time bomb that they cannot control. As a person with this disorder, I know and have struggled to maintain a healthy relationship with the people I love due to the fact that I have a hard time trusting others because I am so afraid of them leaving me and abandoning me, which is the root cause of this disorder.
By Sierra George8 years ago in Psyche
BPD and Me Part 1
I guess I've always known that I wasn't "normal" from a young age. I always felt things more intensely than other people, and held onto those emotions longer. I had difficulty making and keeping friends. Due to my mixed ancestry, I had a constant identity crisis, never knowing where I fit in. I also had a very tumultuous childhood in which I experienced traumas that still affect me to this day. I always wondered what was wrong with me. Was it something that I could fix, or would I just have to suffer my whole life? It was not until I was 27 that I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, the most commonly diagnosed personality disorder. Where I live (the United Kingdom), it's estimated that seven out of every 1000 people have this disorder.
By Matti dos Santos8 years ago in Psyche
The Black or White Thinking, Dramatic and Erratic Personality
The term Borderline Personality Disorder or BPD isn't the most well-known mental illness, compared to Depression, Bipolar Disorder, and Anxiety but it affects 1.6 percent of people in the United States and 2 percent of people in Canada. BPD is a Personality Disorder which, by definition, means: A deeply ingrained and maladaptive pattern of behaviour of a specified kind, typically manifested by the time one reaches adolescence and causing long-term difficulties in personal relationships or in functioning in society. Personality Disorders have three Clusters; Cluster A (Odd, Eccentric, Bizarre), Cluster B (Dramatic, Erratic),and Cluster C (Anxious, Fearful). Our friend BPD falls under Cluster B and can not only be debilitating, frustrating, and tiring for us, but it can also affect the lives of those around us.
By Hailey Gumbley8 years ago in Psyche
Mercury Retrograde: The Good, The Bad and The Truth!
Have you ever wondered if the planets could actually have an affect on your life? It's not as far-fetched as one might think it is. Mercury is more than just a mysterious planet in the far away galaxy. Even though Mercury is an average distance of 48 million miles (77 kilometers) from Earth, it's presence is felt by all of the people that are living on planet Earth.
By Silena Le Beau8 years ago in Psyche
Living with Borderline Personality Disorder - the Diagnosis
It took a lot out of me to muster up the courage to make it to my therapy appointment on time. By the time I had gotten dressed, the anxiety of leaving the house had set in. The lurking thoughts of my fear of driving —thanks to my car accident earlier in the year — caused my heart to race. It did not stop pounding on the trip across town, not even as I arrived, only intensified as I entered the behavioral health office. Step one, check, I told myself. I made it to the office. Without making eye contact with the receptionist, I checked in and flipped through our local newspaper (supplied by the office) to try to ease my anticipation. The therapist called my name, led me to her office, and closed the door behind me; not only ensuring my legally-required privacy, but sealing me inside her office to unleash my life story and traumas in what should have taken an hour… but dragged on well past two. She took a long time to think and write down my experiences.
By Jess Didway8 years ago in Psyche
Past the Borderline
Ever since I was young I had the most difficult time when it came to making and keeping friends. I would always seem to lose friends and it would never last more than 4 years or less. I was forced to go to counseling when I was younger but to say that it helped at the time, I don't know if I could say. From waking up being angry at the world to going to bed hating myself and the world. "Why me?" I would always say to myself. Why was it me that got adopted, why is it me that always cries and gets in trouble for trying to having her emotions and feelings heard? Why why why??
By Emily Buehner8 years ago in Psyche
