ptsd
Post Traumatic Stress Disorder; The storm after the storm.
Pseudomutuality
I never realized the amount of damage all the emotional and psychological abuse I was suffering from by my narcissistic mother until I got into another situation recently with someone who I thought was a good friend but who turned out to be equally as damaging as all the other addicts, narcissists, psychopaths and sociopaths I have encountered throughout my life.
By Dana Toliver5 years ago in Psyche
MY PTSD DIAGNOSIS
My name is Courtney. I am 33 years old and have struggled to cope with my mental health since first diagnosed with major depressive disorder at age 19. If i look back at those years since that diagnosis, I see a tangled mess of emotional roller coasters, confusion, tears, anger and a mountain of stress piled on top of Mum and Dad for having to 'deal' with my chaotic life and poor decisions I have continued to make up until this day. I have an endless list of counselors, psychologists, psychiatrists and doctors who I have worked with, the majority I have not liked or bonded with other than 2 out of almost 20 names on that list. Rarely anything that was taught to me made any such difference to my mental well-being, and if there was anything gained it was merely a band-aid solution, holding me together until an unexpected life hurdle is thrown my way, then all of the teachings are forgotten, I get trapped in my emotions and remembering the practices of mindfulness are no use to me when my state of mind is triggered into an unsafe state, and in the few times mindfulness has come to mind, I can't remember a thing about it no matter how hard i try.
By Courts of Course5 years ago in Psyche
What Are The Symptoms Of Agoraphobia?
Agoraphobia is a schizoaffective thing, since you feel like everybody is watching you, thinking negative things about you, and talking about you in general. This is merely a schizoaffective symptom that gets way better with medication, not to mention getting your head out of your hat. Agoraphobia is a thing, it makes people not feel well, it makes one paranoid, and only because it is the way it is. I also have anxiety and such; because I have multiple anxiety disorders give or take the way my body is built. I have PTSD, OCD, and generalized anxiety. I may feel well enough to do occupational therapy Zoom groups just in case.
By Iria Vasquez-Paez5 years ago in Psyche
PTSD, inconvenient anger, and the power of forgiveness
When something traumatic happens to you, oftentimes during the recovery process you will come against something known as "toxic positivity culture". In short, this can be described as swallowing or denying an emotion, thought process, or way of coping in order to say everything is okay and nothing "bad" has tainted your head space. When I was younger, I found myself submerged in the counterculture of Vancouver's Commercial Drive. White women with dreadlocks and crystal collections that could pay off my student loans would tell me about the inner workings of the universe, how it was all connected, and the magic of sacred geometry. “What exactly is sacred geometry?” I would ask. “Like, what applications does it have?” The only reply I would get was, “It’s in everything, look around you!” I would nod uneasily, feeling like the answer was perhaps lacking some detail. They would educate me on how to set my vibration so that only good things would happen to me and I was swept up in the ideas that focusing on or even acknowledging my anger, sadness, frustration, disappointment or anything that wasn’t a constant manic joy would result in me allowing these negative energies to taint me; which would often imply I was somehow not a good person. “Low vibrational”, I would hear in very self assured tones.
By Elijah Miley5 years ago in Psyche
Your Body Remembers
Your body remembers, even if you don’t, as I didn’t understand for years why it felt like every single muscle in my body was contracting when I walked into a dental office. Even when I was just scheduled for a routine cleaning and exam. These reactions in the dental chair caused me to avoid treatment since I was a young child. I knew I had a terrible experience with my childhood dentist, but could not for the life of me remember the specifics. I still don’t recall the details of everything that happened, and I don’t need to, as doing so would cause more harm than benefit. However, after years of avoidance and almost 20 months of addressing this trauma head-on in therapy, I can make a reasonable conclusion about what has happened to me.
By Jaden Prendergast5 years ago in Psyche
You're Such A Teresa
My sister, Liz, has this thing she says to me, " You're such a Teresa." It's just a running joke between us that's about something I've done or said that she thinks is funny like when I decided I'm not interested in finding out what my real hair color is but for some reason lately I've been thinking about what , " A Teresa" is.
By Teresa Wegrzyn5 years ago in Psyche
The Haze
There's a haze that happens, a fog almost, when someone physically attacks you. It's like it wraps around your mind and everything goes into slow motion. The violence of the situation can be seen in such clarity and detail, yet everything seems fuzzy at the same time.
By Wynette Richardson6 years ago in Psyche
