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I Killed Myself Today
June 19th 2018 I killed myself today. It was harder than I thought. The last few seconds brewed an ice storm through my fingertips. The slit down my arm separated like the Red Sea. My vision was a camera trying to refocus as my tears, filled with everlasting sadness, drip onto my twin sized mattress that carried the memories of my mother tucking me in. Those memories also carry the last time I heard the words "I love you." Though, they were kind of hard to hear between the glass breaking against the wall and the sound of my mother's heart shattering when you slammed the door for the last time. She always said love never existed. And I believed her when she left me behind too.
By Madelena Martinez8 years ago in Psyche
Ramblings & Findings of a Suicide Dreamer
Recently I have been having dreams of suicide. I sleep for a few hours, and I wake up in breathless, dry sobs with no immediate recollection of the scenes I have just witnessed. I lay there, shaking off the dream, slipping back into unconsciousness, and spinning the wheel to see what method lies beneath my eyelids this time around. Another dream; another suicide; another means to an end. More sobs and no tears, just violent heaves of what I have just put myself through.
By Kaylin Bever8 years ago in Psyche
Stop Posting The Suicide Helpline, You're Not Doing Any Favors
I'm depressed. I have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder (rapid cycling, type two), pretty much every anxiety disorder possible, borderline personality disorder, and I probably have a whole lot of other shit going on that I'm just too tired to even get checked out. My psychiatrist told me multiple times in this week's visit that I really do need therapy, and I need to stop laughing off my problems.
By Jessie Gunoskey8 years ago in Psyche
Nevertheless, She Persisted...
Have you ever taken a moment and thought the smile on your friend's face was just a mask to hide the pain? When you look at someone, all that you see is their outer appearance. You don’t even bother to think about what may be going on in their life. We only focus on ourselves as that is our priority.
By Kelsey Waddle8 years ago in Psyche
The Bridge
The ebbing and flowing of the river below has always succeeded, in harmonising with the speeding cars on the bridge above, to clear my mind. There is nothing like walking with your own thoughts along the river's edge, stopping and staring out; searching for answers. Though the questions are never words, but emptiness, the kind of emptiness you feel as a kid when you realised that something you once believed was no longer true, like when you found out that Santa wasn’t real. It’s not that you didn’t know already but that that little possibility, that one percent, has vanished never to return, that little part of your consciousness died. I think that’s why I stare out at the water, hoping that in its unfathomable depth or within the vastness of its oceans, it may return something to me that has been long lost. Like a sailor’s family hoping against hope to see them on the horizon, but they never do.
By Duncan Vickers8 years ago in Psyche
An Open Letter to Death
Dear Death, How dare you creep into bed with my husband and flirt with him, and tease him with the idea that death is the best option for him to pick. How dare you whisper sweet nothings into his ear about how life isn't worth it anymore.
By Stephanie Boswell8 years ago in Psyche
Mental Health and Seeking Help
If you’re reading this, it’s probably because you’re struggling. Maybe you’re struggling with an eating disorder or PTSD or depression or any other mental illness that is grabbing hold of your life. So the first thing I’m going to tell you is: please don’t give up.
By Nicole Laskey8 years ago in Psyche
Asking for a Friend, How Do You Learn to Eat?
Every individual has most likely struggled with their body image at one point or another in their life. As sad as it is, this is incredibly common. When overlooked by others, sometimes it can lead a person down a path to something more serious. Eating disorders currently engulf at least 30 million people of all ages and genders in the United States (ANAD).
By Lucy Haney8 years ago in Psyche
To My Next Therapist
September 30, 2017 To My Next Therapist, I think about killing myself a lot. Swerving into traffic at the last minute, not caring if I’m driving too fast, or maybe “accidentally” taking too many Klonopin. The thought crosses my mind multiple times a day. But, I can’t tell you this without being immediately put on a 72-hour psych hold. I can’t talk to anybody at home without fear of someone calling the cops on me because I’m “a danger to myself.” I can’t have an honest conversation about my suicidal thoughts and the demons that provoke them without being reprimanded and detained.
By Edyn Schwartz8 years ago in Psyche
